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ALMOST DONE!! When writing these sort of "climax" chapters it became more and more apparent that I like verbal climaxes rather than action ones.

The conflict ended up being (and will continue to be) a conflict involving words more than anything physical, and part of that is because I really like writing dialogue. It's kind of a problem that defined my writing in grad school and that I've tried for the most part to deal with by writing more visually and with more action, but sometimes I just...go for the dialogue. It's because I can't picture things in my head visually that well without seeing them in front of me (kind of like needing references for drawing but like...for memory) BUT I can hear people and dialogue pretty clearly for the most part. So characters start talking and thinking a lot.

Not that the stuff they're trying to deal with in this fic is something that can really be solved by violence. Chuuya's existence until now has been defined by what he can do, and while Dazai comes at things from a planning pov he also is involved with a lot of violence. There is a lot of action in BSD and not a lot of talking, which is another reason why I tend to make them talk. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but I did enjoy writing it. Needless to say, there will be more talking.
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 Part 1 here. The rest of this is just gonna be me reading through the chapters and picking out things that I have to comment on! Picking up on Chapter 5: 
  • "The best he could do was brush off Dazai’s constant remarks about death and convince himself that it wasn’t real." This is a flashback, but I always wondered how Chuuya really felt about Dazai's wish to die. I think it would have scared him a lot, but since he couldn't do anything about it, he'd push it away instead of agonizing over it. 
  • "He needed to see Dazai, to have him right there and solid to know that Dazai hadn’t gone and offed himself." This line comes from a bit of a personal issue I have about fearing constantly about the death of other people and thinking that they might have died if they haven't been around for a while. 
  • When Dazai tells Ango that the kidnapped executive is Chuuya, Ango totally knows what's up. But if he said anything about it, he'd probably end up in another car accident. 
  • "He’d been told his whole life, by Dazai, by Kouyou, by Mori, by everyone he’d met before then on the streets, not to depend on other people. Yet the very nature of his Ability demanded that he depend on someone. Life was cruel like that." Honestly this is one of the things I think bothers Chuuya the most, and there's a lot in the fandom about how Chuuya depends on Dazai (and vice versa). One of the biggest struggles in writing SKK is exploring that without making it seem like Chuuya isn't independent. It's an interesting thing to play with, the idea that being dependent on others doesn't mean you aren't independent. 
  • Chuuya doesn't know about the book, and I like playing with that. Clearly Yokohama is important to people from all over the world, but to someone who doesn't know why, it must be a bit frustrating. 
  • Chapter 6: I really liked writing Atsushi being concerned about Dazai. He doesn't really have the same kind of baggage Dazai has with regards to the politics in the city, and he doesn't know much about Chuuya in canon. This poor kid just wants everyone to be okay. 
  • "Anger burned in Akutagawa’s eyes, and Dazai wondered if he felt something like betrayal at learning that someone else he’d looked up to had decided to leave." Okay, okay, I really love thinking about the relationship between Akutagawa and Chuuya. There wasn't much at the time of writing to go off aside from some official art of Chuuya being silly and Akutagawa being taciturn, but I figured that they would know each other and work together based on their rankings. Now that things like the Port Mafia Onsen drama have come out, I know that they actually do have a relationship, and reading back on this is somehow really satisfying knowing that. 
  • Again playing with things we all know but Chuuya doesn't, only the people at the Agency seem to know about Fukuzawa's Ability (and Akutagawa probably does, since he was present for Dazai explaining it to Atsushi). I think that to someone like Chuuya, who can't control a hugely useful part of his Ability, Fukuzawa's Ability is like a miracle. He wouldn't have to depend on Dazai anymore to neutralize it. And I think Fyodor, if he's as good as he's meant to be, would have the information on Fukuzawa and would use it. 
  • I have a headcanon based on IRL Chuuya that BSD Chuuya likes to write often. He keeps notebooks. Some of them are like journals and some have poetry, and they're the most private thing in the world to him. 
  • Chapter 7 starts with a flashback, and Chuuya caring for Dazai's wounds after he's been tortured, because I love the idea of Chuuya being a proper partner and patching Dazai up. I love Chuuya caring despite this being par for the course. 
  • "Pain, he didn’t enjoy despite his desire to die." Dazai says this to Atsushi towards the beginning of BSD, which is why I also headcanon that he doesn't self harm. His scars come from attempts at suicide and torture at the hands of other people. 
  • "Chuuya’s own scars and injuries would be hidden where people couldn’t see, beneath pants and layers of shirts and jackets, perhaps some days beneath gloves." Another headcanon of mine, because a lot of times people assume that Chuuya had it easy under Kouyou. I think Kouyou would want Chuuya to have the appearance of someone who got it easy, but he would need a lot of the same training and I think her cruelty would be hidden, since she would value the appearance of being strong. It's to Chuuya's advantage to look unaffected at all times, at least physically if he can't emotionally. (I also think that part of the reason Dazai wore excessive bandages was that so people would underestimate him by thinking he was injured. He kind of does this during the Lovecraft fight in Chapter 31 when he wears a fake cast.) 
  • Fyodor using bandages against Chuuya as a dig at Dazai might be my weakness. 
  • Chapter 8 has Dazai choosing to not let Yosano use her Ability on Chuuya. I think that the Agency in general probably doesn't use Yosano's Ability on prisoners unless they're about to die, because the slow recovery from injury makes it less likely that the prisoner will escape. 
  • "He wasn’t going to be the one to break first." Dazai and Chuuya both have this problem, I think, showing weakness to each other. Which leads to bad communication. 
  • Dazai says that he wouldn't have invited Chuuya to join the Agency, which I think is kind of true. I don't think that would be his first thought even if Chuuya somehow got out of the Mafia, for a lot of reasons. The Agency was Dazai's out from the Port Mafia. In a way, it's his. Having the past follow him there isn't something he would want, or it would take him a while to get to that point. 
  • At the end of Chapter 8, Dazai decides to have Atsushi watch over Chuuya because Atsushi has a lot of hope. I think Atsushi in general is really good at looking after people, because he genuinely wants to help them and make them feel comfortable. He doesn't want them to feel like he's felt in the past. And tbh, I also have a weakness for thinking about how characters who haven't interacted much or at all in canon would interact with each other. 
So that was chapters 5-8! Until next time! 

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 I guess I'll also use this blog to write about the process of fic writing for some fics. At least, the ones that have more interesting backstories. 

So my most recent SKK fic, Do No Harm is a pandemic AU. I say where I got the idea in the notes, but even further than that, this kind of topic of contagious diseases and pandemics is a huge interest to me. Pathology is actually also a huge interest to me. I'm not good at science and I don't know a lot of the science behind a lot of diseases, but I still find it really fascinating. 

The disease in "Do No Harm" is a hemorrhagic fever (rather than the Spanish flu as originally suggested to me.) Hemorrhagic fevers are scary because of the bleeding they cause both inside and out. The most recent outbreak of hemorrhagic fever was Ebola in several countries in Africa, and I'd say that Ebola is the most well-known hemorrhagic fever that crops up. 

There's an excellent book called The Hot Zone by Richard Preston that details incidents of outbreaks involving hemorrhagic fevers. I read this a few years ago (probably around 2012) and it became relevant around the time of the Ebola outbreaks. It provides a good look at what hemorrhagic fevers are and why their outbreaks are so devastating. 

That said, a few liberties were taken for this fic. I based the virus in this fic off Marburg virus (which is very similar to Ebola, but had a major outbreak in Germany). Hemorrhagic fevers are extremely contagious, but they aren't actually easy to spread. These viruses spread through direct contact with bodily fluids, meaning that the bodily fluids of a sick person have to get into your bodily fluids for the virus to take. However, if you do happen to have end up with infected fluids inside of you, chances are you are going to get sick. 

That method of transfer is different from, say, the flu, which is a lot more easy to transfer. Viruses like the flu can be transferred through the air, by coughing and sneezing and by inhaling particles of the virus. That means that being in the same room as someone with the flu can get you sick. Something like the flu is easier to spread, so a flu outbreak could more easily lead to a pandemic than something like Ebola could. 

The flu also lasts longer. Severe hemorrhagic fevers tend to kill off their victims faster, which gives the virus less of a window to spread. People with those viruses are also less mobile once the severe symptoms kick in, which further hinders the virus' movement. 

Hemorrhagic fever viruses can't be spread through air or aerosol (droplets in the air), but for the purposes of this fic I made it so that the virus can be spread via aerosol. Viruses that spread in this way can't travel on the air, and survive for short periods of time in droplets released into the air. It isn't as bad as the flu, but it's easier to spread than a standard hemorrhagic fever. Because the setting is Japan, which has high quality healthcare and medical facilities, I wanted the virus to be easier to spread. Even though I think something like a hemorrhagic fever would be able to spread a bit in Japan simply because they've never seen it before, which could result in delays of treatment and improper handling, I still thought the virus would have to have an easier method of spreading in order for it to have the impact on major urban areas that it did in the fic. 

The title, "Do No Harm," has to do with the promise doctors make upon becoming doctors. It's also a reference to a memoir by Henry Marsh, a British neurosurgeon, which details the complex feelings and decisions and situations that come with being a doctor. I thought that sort of sentiment was relevant to the decisions Dazai and Yosano have to make in the fic. It's surprising how often there isn't a clear-cut right or wrong answer in medicine. 

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